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Early dream

[First dream, first thought] Somehow, she came into my dream that night. I was just happy and complaining. I thought she wouldn’t enter my dream, but I didn’t think about it, so I came. I didn’t dream of her until such a long time passed. What on earth did God want to show! I don’t understand, but I never know the reason. I don’t know what kind of relationship between me and her, just classmates? But I don’t agree with it in my heart. I don’t want to delve into it. I am afraid that I will get hurt again and suffer a huge injury alone again. If I want to simply follow the nature, if the fate comes, I will love it; If the fate does not arrive, I will only sigh that I am alone and affectionate, forget it, but I can’t imagine that the reality is the beginning of future visits. I was wondering if I was too high-profile. To sit in the same room was to burn high Incense. I was blessed in my last life, but now I have such a bad heart. How dare I rest! Excellent, smart, quiet, Just like the Yi people in the dream, how could she face up to me who was so unworthy and backward? I knew at ease that I couldn’t ask her heart, but I never wanted to give up like this! But if she wanted to build a new self, she sighed that she had no proud Capital. How could she admire her? Even if I had Capital, she would ignore her and think of her beautiful, there must be a man in my heart, which is irreplaceable, and she is not a person who hates the old and likes the new, so I have to hide this secret in my heart, thinking, if there is an appropriate opportunity to show her faintly, see her expression and then talk about it, but fear to disturb her study and work and rest time, it has not been said to her until now, now it has reached the date of separation, I think I will never see it in my life! I sighed for meeting each other late, then I sighed for my cowardice. After all, all my mistakes belonged to me. Thinking about what I should do, I really wanted to follow the nature, thinking that I would never see her again, I became more and more sad, it is really hard to load any more, and now it is suppressed again and again, When I can no longer control it, what will I do? I am a person who misses the old. I review all kinds of experiences that I think are worth recalling from time to time, and I think that things are right and wrong again and again, from time to time, she couldn’t help crying alone …… thinking about the past, all her things had entered my heart, only sighing that my heart had her, and her heart had no me. She always loved books crazily in ordinary days, I know that she wants to find a good place to make her family feel at ease, so that she can be worthy of her heart. The spirit of selflessness is admired by all. However, there are many wonderful things on the road. I wonder if she will remember them deeply, maybe she would think that this road was just a small station, not worth hiding, or maybe the space in her heart had already been occupied by another section, no more seats can be left empty …… at this time, I dare not make more guesses, no matter how many, I have no intention. It is already a matter of things and people, and it will never be retrieved. If I had known this, why should I be silent for the first time! I think, if I don’t break out in silence and perish in silence, what I said is that in silence, I don’t know whether I will be the former or the latter. In fact, I know everything, she has been lying to herself all the time —– she also has feelings to lie to herself, but in reality, where does she feel! Miss her heart has been quietly brought out in all kinds of behaviors and actions! I have her in my heart, and she has no me in her heart. I miss her sadly again and again, and the feeling of eating people has become the last thing to live in. Finally, I have to bear it alone. What kind of love is in the world, it only makes people bitter and bitter [think about it] Since that time I saw it, I have buried a foreshadowing in my heart. I have found what I want. I think, I want to seize the target and march forward bravely, but the speed was so fast that I couldn’t reach it. I was disappointed. I fought for it. But the sun was setting so fast that I didn’t respond for a moment. I missed it so much. I was not reconciled, but what could I do, his arms, I think it should be very warm, you are in his arms, why let me hear this sentence, I thought it was their misinformation, but finally found, It turns out that all these are true, and I don’t know how the winter cold plum supports spring, and why it thanks easily in spring. I think it has its own goal, it is just because of external factors. Its strong perseverance is beyond criticism, and it cannot be accompanied by cold winter in the end. Looking alone in the sunset, I want to see the rising of the new day, but I can’t see how to wait. Give it up! Others persuaded me, but I can’t, I can’t give up my beautiful only, even if I am not your only, I will watch you finish this journey and see your figure go away, I won’t let you get hurt at this moment. Even if you hurt me ruthlessly, you will never go back, confirming that sentence, I am not sad, I just don’t know why tears flow. I lived a dirty life and failed. I set foot on a different place with my ideal. I want to see it in a different place, and my heart will not hurt! But I was wrong again! I really can’t get rid of your existence in my heart, I have been deeply rooted and miss you has become my compulsory course every day. Fortunately, you often appear in dreams, but you in dreams are just like reality. If you can’t get together, are you doomed to be like this, my only comfort to see you in my dream has also become my escape. Maybe I shouldn’t see you at all, and I shouldn’t make a false assertion that what I want is you, but the fact has happened, what can I do? I can’t do anything, only when luck comes [I want] I don’t know why I am, but I am not good at language. So far, I have never told her how regretful I am, I didn’t say but now it’s too late. I think it should be warm in others’ arms. I am trying to forget her, but I just can’t get what I want. She appears in my mind from time to time. I think I am can’t get rid of her existence in my heart. But every time I miss her, it is a scene of her talking and laughing with others, which leads to my injury getting deeper and deeper, while she is happy with her happiness, I never thought that in a quiet corner, there was a person who nobody paid attention to her all the time. I wondered if I had been making love by myself, I want to tell her clearly but I don’t have the courage. I really don’t know what I should do. I can’t do anything. I’m really afraid of affecting her happy life now. I think I should bless in my heart. But who will tolerate the person you like in others’ arms. In fact, I don’t want to expect her love to come to me (to be honest, I am can’t help it), but to truly love someone is to hope her happiness to be continued. Like (prose editor: prose online) the 30th year of my WeChat era The year before last, my eunuch planned to buy a smartphone for him on his birthday. The main purpose was to teach them how to play WeChat, and let them… Comments on the Chinese version of “worry-free grocery store” Everyone moves towards a better life through his own efforts. 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Blue Yan

[Introduction] when I wrote this, I felt deeply guilty for my husband. I don’t know why I am influenced by this kind of emotion. That man won’t control my life. At most, he is just a blue-looking confidant. He listened to my nagging and comforted my crying. He said this sentence on QQ: time is a straight line, and there is never a head, so I am can’t catch up. I am deeply moved. I am not sure whether what he said could not be recovered was the same as mine. I would rather believe that he thought so. I don’t know if other women have the same idea as me. Even if they can’t get it, even if they have a new life, they still hope that the man who used to give affirmation. I hope he regrets. Every time he says: envy, I will laugh at him: Yes, it seems hypocritical to say envy, because originally this happiness was intended to be with you, but at that time, you refused. At this time, he smiled or said nothing, or said: in fact, it is for your good not to be with you. What a ridiculous reason! When talking about my birthday, it was another ridiculous coincidence. On the day of my birthday, he lost his mother. He had never even noticed this before, but I deeply cared about it. For a long time, I hope he can say: in fact, I love you very much. At that time, it is now, but you are already someone else’s woman, so I only have blessings. I never heard such words, and even didn’t have any clues to prove my thoughts. Then I thought, maybe we had never loved. Yes, love is too extravagant. When I wrote this, I felt deeply guilty for my husband. I don’t know why I am influenced by this kind of emotion. That man won’t control my life. At most, he is just a blue-looking confidant. He listened to my nagging and comforted my crying. Once, I asked my friend: why can’t I get quiet anywhere in my husband, where can I get it, why, is it related to love? My friend didn’t explain, but said: Where did Yu Xun get comfort from duanmulei? Where did Mu Rong never get comfort? What she liked was the Sea of clouds, not duanmulei. At that time, I understood that I was sure that I loved my husband, not that blue-looking confidant. Maybe there will be such a person in your life, but he will not accompany you for a lifetime. Such a person will also move you deeply. [Responsible editor: Ke Er]] Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the 30th year of my WeChat era The year before last, my eunuch planned to buy a smartphone for him on his birthday. The main purpose was to teach them how to play WeChat, and let them… Comments on the Chinese version of “worry-free grocery store” Everyone moves towards a better life through his own efforts. The answer to the consultation letter is just encouraging an existing… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 14, 2018) January 14, 2018: Today, the temperature in Wujiang is relatively warm, not as cold as a few days ago. Yesterday and Today, Wu Jiang’s… Be a person who never stops growing up Teacher Lily coughed with a strong nasal tone when she was in yoga class. Maybe it’s uncomfortable, she has less demonstration action today,… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 13, 2018) January 13, 2018: Yesterday, my sister and nephew Little David didn’t come to the Dongwan village of jinjiaba where my mother and I stayed temporarily,… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 12, 2018) January 12, 2018: The day before yesterday, I said, “my mother will go to Kunshan tomorrow.” However, yesterday, my mother did not go to Kunshan…

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Office

Since yesterday, people who came into my office to work told me carefully before leaving, saying that they seemed to smell a very special smell. Is? I also seemed to smell it, but I couldn’t tell any smell, let alone find the reason, so I just did it. Today, I went to work one hour earlier. When I entered the office, I suddenly felt that the odor was stronger, which definitely reached the odor level. But I searched everywhere and found nothing. My office has always been famous for its conciseness and hygiene. Where does this stench come from? The trash basket is also very clean and odorless, it is really strange. According to my usual habit, after cleaning the office, I poured water on the small bonsai on the table with the leftover cold boiled water. There was still light rain outside the window, so I picked up a small bonsai and put some rain on the windowsill. When the flowerpot is picked up, a layer of creeping white worm —- maggots immediately appears on the desktop. Suddenly, the mystery of the stench in this office was solved. In order to decorate some green in the office, I went to the street some time ago to buy a small bonsai and put it in front of the computer. At the same time, I brought a green plant from home to keep it in the drink bottle after drinking. Two points of green indeed brought a lot of vitality to the office. A few days ago, when a beauty colleague discussed with me about the experience of planting flowers and plants, she revealed a secret to me: watering flowers with the leftover milk is an excellent fertilizer. Therefore, I squeezed the rest of the breakfast these days and the rest of the milk for guests to drink into the flowerpot. After a hot double break, the office was full of stink, and so many disgusting maggots unexpectedly came out. Take out the flowerpot to take a shower to change water. After cleaning the office carefully, the bad smell disappeared completely. It seems that good experience can only be absorbed after careful demonstration. However, the bad smell in the office was relieved, and I felt much better today. Like (prose editor: prose online) the 30th year of my WeChat era The year before last, my eunuch planned to buy a smartphone for him on his birthday. The main purpose was to teach them how to play WeChat, and let them… Comments on the Chinese version of “worry-free grocery store” Everyone moves towards a better life through his own efforts. The answer to the consultation letter is just encouraging an existing… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 14, 2018) January 14, 2018: Today, the temperature in Wujiang is relatively warm, not as cold as a few days ago. Yesterday and Today, Wu Jiang’s… Be a person who never stops growing up Teacher Lily coughed with a strong nasal tone when she was in yoga class. Maybe it’s uncomfortable, she has less demonstration action today,… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 13, 2018) January 13, 2018: Yesterday, my sister and nephew Little David didn’t come to the Dongwan village of jinjiaba where my mother and I stayed temporarily,… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 12, 2018) January 12, 2018: The day before yesterday, I said, “my mother will go to Kunshan tomorrow.” However, yesterday, my mother did not go to Kunshan…

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Reading

[Introduction] what a wonderful thing reading is! The charm of words is so endless that it is like an Arabic lamp, which always brings me unexpected surprises. It not only dispels inexplicable worries, but also makes you laugh happily when you are alone. More importantly…… I remember once, I was a little unhappy in my heart and wanted to read a novel to relieve my boredom, so I turned to the article “acceptance” in Wang Zengqi’s selected works and read it, the impetuous and discontent in my heart faded away. In the novel, Akiko became a monk at the age of thirteen, but he still lived a good life. Such a life in reality may be miserable and helpless, but it can be read to make people feel envy. Behind those beautiful words, I seem to hear a wise man telling me that living itself is a beautiful thing, and some annoyance and unhappiness are natural things in life, there is no need to get through it. There is also such an affectionate description in the article that the neighbor girl walked barefoot on the ridge, leaving five little toes with flat soles and missing a part of the arch, this series of beautiful footprints disturbed the Little Monk’s heart. It turns out that a bunch of footprints can also be beautiful to disturb people’s hearts. Mr. Wang just told me a story in Life with tranquil and natural words, but there seemed to be a beam of sunshine passing through the deserted soul, taking away those unreasonable haze, it seems that there is a gurgling spring, which clears the noise and common customs in my heart. In silence, I suddenly became enlightened. No matter in adversity or prosperity, no matter in ordinary life or rough life, the beauty and charm of life are everywhere, no matter when and where, as long as you face life with a positive and optimistic attitude, even the sufferings and setbacks of life, you can also find a feeling of beauty. I like this kind of romantic character. Don’t be frivolous, don’t show off, don’t be secular, don’t be gorgeous, don’t make public. They are either fresh and poetic, such as Zhu Ziqing and Shen Congwen; Or simple and meaningful, such as Ji Xianlin and Wang Zengqi; Or humorous and Frank, such as Liang Shiqiu and Dong Qiao; Or calm and wise, such as Shi Tiesheng and Jia Pingwa, they seem to be calm but actually hide waves, which are extremely powerful to the soul. This is because in the depth of their words, there is a same feeling of compassion, they all have a special liking for truth, goodness and beauty, and a green and luxuriant childlike heart and a lively life interest forever. Reading their words, happiness and warmth are always within reach. How to describe the real feeling brought by reading? I remember that the winter just passed was a little special, cold and warm as if the handover ceremony was suddenly completed at dusk on a certain winter day, and the weather suddenly turned into ice. I held my hands back and forth on the platform of the classroom, stamping my feet to keep warm from time to time, and waiting patiently for the bell of the class. At this time, a girl with short hair ran up and handed me a small hand warmer, which was the ordinary glass beverage bottle filled with boiled water. The classroom passed through a short pause like waves shining, and then a kind and knowing smile lit up. In that shining smile, my heart was rippling through waves of happiness, so pure and warm. What reading brings me is exactly such subtle and substantial warmth and happiness. I once saw an interesting painting. At the most peaceful and leisure moment of the day, the sun was preparing to go down the mountain. In the green grass, a woman was sitting on a chair reading freely, very intoxicated, however, the chair in the picture has left the ground and suspended in the air together with the cup of coffee at hand. I think the painter must want to convey such an idea when holding the pen. The power of books is enough to liberate our bodies, and walk freely in another charming world with our hearts. What a wonderful thing reading is! The charm of words is so endless that it is like an Arabic lamp, which always brings me unexpected surprises. It not only dispels inexplicable worries, but also makes you laugh happily when you are alone. More importantly, reading gives us a pair of insight, let us see the other side of romantic life, so as not to feel tired and bored any more. Some people say that life is a pure flame, and we live by the invisible sun in our hearts. Words are the sun that never sets in my reader’s heart. [Responsible editor: Ke Er]] Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the 30th year of my WeChat era The year before last, my eunuch planned to buy a smartphone for him on his birthday. The main purpose was to teach them how to play WeChat, and let them… Comments on the Chinese version of “worry-free grocery store” Everyone moves towards a better life through his own efforts. The answer to the consultation letter is just encouraging an existing… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 14, 2018) January 14, 2018: Today, the temperature in Wujiang is relatively warm, not as cold as a few days ago. Yesterday and Today, Wu Jiang’s… Be a person who never stops growing up Teacher Lily coughed with a strong nasal tone when she was in yoga class. Maybe it’s uncomfortable, she has less demonstration action today,… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 13, 2018) January 13, 2018: Yesterday, my sister and nephew Little David didn’t come to the Dongwan village of jinjiaba where my mother and I stayed temporarily,… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 12, 2018) January 12, 2018: The day before yesterday, I said, “my mother will go to Kunshan tomorrow.” However, yesterday, my mother did not go to Kunshan…