Tag: 上海普陀不正规的浴场J


Child’s Play

I always feel that I don’t belong anywhere in this world. Wandering from one city to another, drifting from the north to the south, having no fixed residence and always being alone. I have dreamed of strange things for many times, and they all showed the same gray state in my body, swaying and stubborn as me. This suddenly reminded me of the story of “don’t wake up” written by Rao. Even though the outside world was still sunny, her eyes were just gray as always. In fact, we are all the same. We often make indecisive decisions about someone or something, and then deceive ourselves and others. I have never thought about changing the world invaded by lies. I am so quiet, quiet in endless sadness and smile, it seems that everything is taken for granted. But sometimes I will force myself to do some puzzling and reckless things, just like my life, which is plain and tortuous during the long journey. I often tell myself how brave and strong I should be. God knows how embarrassed my heart is when I tell myself like this. In fact, I am not happy at all. If I could choose again, I would rather be a grass in the darkness that nobody asked about, or even nothing. There is no need for sadness, comfort or nostalgia. I will be very content to live in this world without doing anything. Late night is the most uncomfortable time for me. I would read e-books while chatting with others, and would not fall asleep until three in the morning. I occasionally read blogs, and recently I like Annie’s blog, feeling that her words are rare sadness and peace. I also read Y’s blog and listened to Eason’s elimination. I couldn’t cry until I wanted to cry. I suddenly found that many people were so sad, and I was just one of them. I laughed when I thought like this. I pray in my heart and hope all my friends can be happy. At this moment, I am so sincere in their blessings. I am really wish them all well. I swear! But Oath is sometimes more difficult to believe than lies. Maybe one day Chengzi will deceive everyone again and disappear without a trace. There is no definite road, and it is still just a wandering belonging to oneself. I think in this world, I am doomed to not have the kind of life to live with others. I have already been trapped in the mire, but I try hard to move forward because of the inexplicable stubbornness in my heart, desperately pursue the other shore that I may never reach. Love, freedom, cleanness and peace are just like what Adel expected, but the result is to exchange death. I have the courage, but I can’t have the opportunity, so I can only smile as a joke. I am just a small pawn under the command of fate. It is my destiny that I cannot help myself. That’s all. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the 30th year of my WeChat era The year before last, my eunuch planned to buy a smartphone for him on his birthday. The main purpose was to teach them how to play WeChat, and let them… Comments on the Chinese version of “worry-free grocery store” Everyone moves towards a better life through his own efforts. The answer to the consultation letter is just encouraging an existing… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 14, 2018) January 14, 2018: Today, the temperature in Wujiang is relatively warm, not as cold as a few days ago. Yesterday and Today, Wu Jiang’s… Be a person who never stops growing up Teacher Lily coughed with a strong nasal tone when she was in yoga class. Maybe it’s uncomfortable, she has less demonstration action today,… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 13, 2018) January 13, 2018: Yesterday, my sister and nephew Little David didn’t come to the Dongwan village of jinjiaba where my mother and I stayed temporarily,… An emotional diary of a Christian (January 12, 2018) January 12, 2018: The day before yesterday, I said, “my mother will go to Kunshan tomorrow.” However, yesterday, my mother did not go to Kunshan…